Why Does My Twin Flame Spark All of My Worst Fears?

I didn’t know when I first met my Twin Flame, that my worst fear was abandonment, but I quickly found out.  Anything and everything he did triggered this fear within me.  I was so scared that he would just up and leave and the pain in even imagining this scenario would literally have me on the ground in tears.  Just thinking about it, would make me feel as if my insides were collapsing on themselves.

The crazy part was every time we fought (before separation), which was often, I would challenge him to leave.  It was like my mind wanted to control the pain and put the separation on my terms instead of his. So, during many fights, I would tell him to leave.  It was like I was begging him to fight for me.  To tell me that he loved me and would never leave.  Except, that is not what this connection is.  This is not one where you push them to their limits, and they swear their undying allegiance to you.  This is one where they take you up on your offer and leave. 

Not only will they ignite your deepest fears, but they will also exhume most other fears you have buried deep down.  Not only did I fear abandonment, but I also feared being cheated on, being lied to, and being used. It is very common for the mind to make us think the absolute worst about our person.  The stories that mind creates are one for a soap opera. They are deep rooted fears that unveil all our insecurities.

You get what you think about.  That is the truth.  When you think of your worst fear over and over and over again, the universe will bring you that fear on a silver platter.  My fear was abandonment. Abandonment is what I got.

Why does your Twin unsheathe your deepest, darkest emotional fears? Because it is the role they play in this journey… the person that wakes you up. Your addictive energy is so enmeshed in mind’s low vibrations, that when these fears are unleashed in their fullest force (the Dark Night), you can shed the ego and wake up.  Your dark night is literally the dying off of your ego and because it is so painful, it allows you to get out of the false reality you have been living in your entire life. This is needed for you to achieve your best life.  So, if you think about how crazy beautiful that is…you must experience your deepest pain to experience the most peace.

I don’t want you thinking that you must live in this place of fear for the duration of your life.  Once you start focusing on your soul alignment, your fears, insecurities, and inner battles with the mind, will start to dissipate.  Don’t get me wrong, mind will try it’s best to bring them to the forefront, but when you know how to align back to soul, you can watch the mind and know that the stories are just that…stories. And once you have gone through your worst pain (the Dark Night), it will never be that painful again.  You may have more pain when triggers arise, but you will be able to get out of them much quicker and with much less heartache.  But the reward for all this suffering, is the deepest sense of joy and peace you have every imagined.  It is living a life that you absolutely love.  I went from wanting to never wake up, to being excited every morning in waking up. 

Your Twin serves the purpose to wake you up, and this will trigger all your fears.  These fears are those that need to be released, and once you do, you will be on the path to a life that you are excited to live.  You will be in love with yourself, and in love with life.